Well I'm back and once again I'm depressed, the only reason why I'm feeling like this is...as much as most people tell me not to worry about the girl problems that I have I have no other choice into worrying about it. It like I cant win no matter what I do, it's like if a girl likes me I don't know what to do but treat them good but it seems that when I treat them good they want to constantly use me to buy stuff for them but I know that I'm going the wrong way with alot of it but I don't know how else to treat a girl and then there's the other girls that I really want to get with but they see my other friends and they automatically run to them cuz they're more interesting at least thats what they think. I mean that I know that I have more going for me than most people that I know but it seem that the assholes always win no matter what I do. The one thing that I'm tired of saying is that one day things will be different but it seems that this day will never come. Maybe if I left and cut off all social network portals and never came back would people really miss me or will it just be a repeat of what it is now...one can never know...

So I've started to figure some things out in my life, hello btw, I think that I'm going to be an eternal third wheel for the majority of my life. I'll finish this up later