Tears

I ask the one question that people don't know, what's wrong with me...this is a question that I have been asking my self for the last 10 years so the end of high school the beginning of college. It has become apparent that mentally something is wrong, I've killed or destroyed things that I loved or was working toward. You know I think I'm slowly slipping into madness, my mind is slowly being eroaded by me being in this area, the stagnation and filth is poison to my ever dulling mind. I need help, this is my call I just need help. I'm not happy anymore and if I am happy it is a false sense of happyness, I think I'm going back to my old ways hopeing for the worst because it won't get any better, please god help me get away from this place and into something better, away from the poison of my life...sorry I failed everyone...