Well I gotta say it's been quite awhile since I've posted on here almost an entire year an what a year it has been, a lot of ups and downs mostly downs. I've been trying to get myself back together but I feel like I've been fragmented for far too long to start pulling my select back together I guess it all began when my GF got pregnant and had the mischarage then from there I got laid off from UMES and now are employed in the bookstore not something that I want but I need the money so I'm sucking it up. It seems like life keeps throwing me curve balls some of which I feel are hard to excape plus this place is like a blackhole sucking things in and not letting go. I have bigger dreams and aspersions than this place and I wish I could just have the courge to get up leave and try my luck somewhere else  I'm just afraid that I would be homeless once I do that after bills that I have been paying start to pile up well I'm going to try to get back to work