Work

I guess I've made life harder than it. By letting my pride get in the way or being fearful of the unknown I've missed out on some choice opportunities. I gotta figure out how to get on the right track to stop flailing about and to put rubber to the road before it's too late. 

Birthday

You know as bad as I thought today was going to be it is turning out to be better than I expected 

Update

Things are starting to come together 

Still in the fight

I gotta say life has been extra tough for me as of late. I've been looking for jobs left and right but it seems like the jobs that I desire dont want to target me while the customer service jobs are chomping at the bit to get me to work for them. That's not what I want, I want to effectively use my accounting degree. I still don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm trying to change my life but it is hard. I hear everyday that I'm not doing thing and that I'm lazy or people are saying that I shouldn't be with the people I love, it's really hurtful. I don't know what I'm doing wrong sometimes I want to run away to a secluded place and disappear. It's like I want to sleep and never wake up because I'm happier in the dream world than in the real world. It's like I'm more successful there than here and I know that it's not real but I'm tired of being a failure. I just want everything to start going my way. I think people don't know what type of stress that I'm going through, mentally I'm fragmented, phycially I feel like my time on earth is coming to and end. And now I've been kicked out of the house for the next 2 days for what idk. Why can't it be my time why can't I be special and have everything I need I'm tired of my life now I'm ready to go home...

Trolling

The one thing that bothers me in life is trolling, I've been trolled several times now with jobs and I feel that it's high time for me to get up and away from this place. It's way too much like a black hole and there isn't a job that's in my field for me to take right now around here. I really want to pack my bags and leave today 

How long do I have to deal with bullshit...

You kno I don't ask alot from people but I would like to ask for a prayer so that I can get this job at FS Taylor and Assoiates. I really need this job, it would set me on the right path to becoming the accountant that I need to be